Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Sometimes you just want to go back when everything was so simple, when you were so naive, and all you did was just have fun in your own little world. Now its a bigger world, with big problems, and nothing is simple lol. But I would still rather be an adult, its just sometimes you look back and smile :p
I am excited to see my mom this friday! Looking at pictures, I miss her so much!
Chester and Lilly have a bacterial infection, its been really fun lol. NOT. Umm, its been really shitty...literally. Excuse my language :P
They are on loads of medication and it has not been easy trying to give them to em. Lilly doesnt like the food, I have to spoon feed it. Chester LOVES it. There are so chewy pills, Lilly hates it and once again...Chester LOVES it. Than there is this one liquid we have to give them, and they run once they see me take it out lol.
Two more weeks of this, and hopefully they will be healthy again!
Have a wonderful day!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Hello the two people who probably read this, lol.
I am going to make a list or two, just to keep me sane since I am filled with boredom after work and since Justin once again wont be home because he works late 3 times throughout the week.
Things I am afraid of:
*Getting another job, because working at Bjs is the stable thing in my new life, that I am good at and understand. I know I can request off whenever and however long I want, which is nice because my mom can visit and I dont have to worry about figuring out the time off.
*I am afraid of new things, and I don't know where it came from. I like having a steady schedule, even though I constantly complain i want to do something different. Its like if my day isnt like normal, I kind of get thrown off track and even sort of nervous like something will go wrong. Its so strange, because I used to be the one who loved going out late and doing crazy things.
*I am afraid of getting into a car accident, cancer, anything that could possibly kill me or others. First off I am too young and worry I wont live to be a mother, or do things I always wanted to do, like go to Hawaii, or have a house and maybe even money :P lol. And if anything happened to the people I love, (and its happened before), I would feel unbelievably incomplete.
*I am afraid of looking stupid, ditzy, ridiculous, anything since I get so embarassed. Its funny how I dont care what people think when it comes to my opinions, but my actions I am constantly worried of people rolling there eyes at me.
Things that make me happy(temporary and permanent):
*Food, from italian to dessert
*Cooking, and it coming out good
*doing makeup, whether its my own or others
*pictures, looking back at certain memories always brings a smile to my face
*singing, acting, dancing like a white girl-you name it.
*reading, especially if its a book that I cant look away from.
*laughing with Justin, whether its him being silly or just both of us for no apparent reason other than that we just love each other
*decorating, and buying things for our apartment. I love walking into our apartment and it feels complete, and like a home should.
*Wine, though that is a temporary... if its sparkling than I probably have a smile on my face.
*my dogs, they can be absolute shitheads sometimes but the feeling I get when I look at them, puts a warm feeling in my heart and it doesnt go away. I couldnt imagine them not in this house.
*When I am not as white as a ghost and have a little tan, so I wont go out embarrassed in shorts lol.
*Last but not least, the important part...my friends and family.
Here are some ridiculous pictures of me I scrambled up...because.
What are you afraid of or what makes you happy?